How Sez Sees It

...in October. There will be no ding-dong of bells chiming though because it is a register office service. Weirdly I do not feel as stressed about this as I did about buying the house. I guess I feel I have more control over this. When we were buying the house we had certain things that we had to wait for and these were things out of our control. With this wedding it is an event and I have organised those before. I feel like if something doesn't get done I only have myself to blame and so I don't get stressed. For some reason I have always wanted an October wedding. I think it is because the weather should still be good without it being too hot for me and also because lots of people go for summer weddings and I am far from conventional in that thinking. Also it is way more expensive to get married in the popular summer months than it is in the autumn. My parents got married on the first weekend of October 36 years ago this year. They had a lovely day for it. In fact, I ...

I often treat myself like crap both mentally and physically. I know I should be nicer to myself but I can't seem to give myself a break. This dawning realisation came the other day when I managed to pull a muscle in my thigh trying to move a washing machine by myself. Rather than ask my fiance to do it or to help me do it I tried on my own. The thing was stuck to the floor and I felt useless for not being able to move it and hurting myself in the process. I am now suffering pain in that leg and have to ride it out with rest and ice treatment. That hasn't stopped me going to work though. I realised that whenever my body seems to let me down physically I beat myself up mentally. I must be weak or stupid for not being able to do something or if I have a random ache or pain I must just be weak in that muscle or something. In reality I could do with losing some weight. Don't get me wrong, I have already started losing weight since I moved into the house. I walk to and from...

I am not usually one for these sorts of new agey ideas, but I do believe that there is something in our dreams. To understand what our dreams are trying to tell us we must first understand why we dream. There are different theories behind why we dream and the truth is that no one really knows. One is that we dream so we can act out our desires and fantasies in a safe environment. There is no consequence in a dream which isn't real. Other theories say that we dream because we are trying to make sense of information we pick up during the course of the day. Our brains take in more than we realise and this needs to be processed at some point. Dreams can also be an insight into our unconscious minds. You may not realise you were worried about something but it surfaces in our dreams. Dreaming is only one part of sleep and sleeping is actually when our brains are most active. Sleep is beneficial in that it rests our bodies and repairs any damage done during the day but the brain uses ...

It's that time of year again when I look back at all the things I have done and compare them to things that were going on in the world at the time. Here we go then. January: I had the flu over Christmas and it only left me at the beginning of January. This means that I was still recovering for a lot of the time. Back to work for me though. I do discover a new favourite band though in SID (said: shido) who are a visual kei band from Japan. They did the theme for Black Butler among others and are amazing! 3-7 January Boko Haram kill more than 2000 in Nigeria. 7 January Islamist terrorists kill members of left-wing satirist French paper, Charlie Hebdo, in Paris. February: Dave and I started house hunting and got our mortgage approved in principal. We also found Scoops, a brilliant little ice-cream place in Portswood highstreet. House hunting began and this was most of our lives to be honest. We celebrated 6 years together on Valentine's Day with a trip to Bournemouth a...

...and it was great! Don't worry, I am not going to give any spoilers at all. It is commonly known that some of our old favourites from the original trilogy are back (Han Solo, Leia and Luke Skywalker). There are plenty of new characters that you will grow to love over the course of the two hours as well. The studios moved to Disney a couple of years ago and that is when it was announced that Episode VII: The Force Awakens would be made. People were skeptical at first as Episode I, II and III were not the greatest films in the world. In fact, there were complaints at the time (and since then) that they totally destroyed the feel of the originals. What I liked most about The Force Awakens is that director J.J Abrams has gone back to a more traditional way of filming with as many of the props being real as possible. Eps 1-3 relied heavily on CGI whereas the original trilogy didn't have that technology so relied on as many realistic props as possible. An example in this new ...

I remember that I started with the best of intentions to do a Christmas blog each day in the lead up to Christmas...but it didn't happen. I was going to write about the history of Christmas, how it is celebrated around the world, popular Christmas items like crackers and trees. I didn't and for that I can only apologise. The truth is that I have been really ill lately. For the last couple of months I have been really struggling with my anxiety which was brought on by my extended illness. In October I had a nasty virus that struck my digestive system and also brought on flu like symptoms. This in turn has left me with a post-viral fatigue. It took such a long time for me to have the tests to prove this...which is something I already knew I had. Now I am finally being taken seriously. The trouble is that in the lead up to Christmas I have been left totally exhausted and that is not fun. By the time I have been at work all day, gone home and done the bits of house work I nee...

Initially this show was an uncertainty. ONE OK ROCK (yes it is spelled out in capitals) were being supported by We Came As Romans and DEAD! (yes, that is how they do their name too) at O2 Shepherd's Bush Empire on Thursday 10 December. Unfortunately, the week before, the venue decided it was the best time to start collapsing. Fear not though, the gig was saved! Luckily the Academy group owns a lot of venues and the O2 Forum Kentish Town stepped up. The gig had to be pushed forward by 24 hours because of clashes otherwise, but still the gig did go ahead! All tickets previously sold were honoured and a good time was to be had by all. DEAD! I have seen this band countless times. The first time I did was at The Joiners in Southampton and they were opening for William Control. This was about three and a half years ago now and I think they had only been together around three or four months. I think almost every member of the band had an injury at the time and there seemed to be iss...