How Sez Sees It

I often treat myself like crap both mentally and physically. I know I should be nicer to myself but I can't seem to give myself a break. This dawning realisation came the other day when I managed to pull a muscle in my thigh trying to move a washing machine by myself. Rather than ask my fiance to do it or to help me do it I tried on my own. The thing was stuck to the floor and I felt useless for not being able to move it and hurting myself in the process. I am now suffering pain in that leg and have to ride it out with rest and ice treatment. That hasn't stopped me going to work though. I realised that whenever my body seems to let me down physically I beat myself up mentally. I must be weak or stupid for not being able to do something or if I have a random ache or pain I must just be weak in that muscle or something. In reality I could do with losing some weight. Don't get me wrong, I have already started losing weight since I moved into the house. I walk to and from...

I have always been bigger than the other girls.  I have never been the skinny thing that turned the heads of the boys around me.  Then again I am hardly huge!  I am big.  I have always been big and I always probably witll be.  I have very wide hips and very wide sholders.  I come from a long line of stocky, broad women.  There are conflicts around how big people get though.  I personally would like to lose a couple of stone and the reason is purely because that is how much I used to weigh and would be a more healthy weight for me to get to.  Health reasons alone for my weight loss.  There are perceptions of how people are supposed to be though and I am sure that some people will see my attempts at losing weight as being a part of that. On the one hand I know that I need to get to a more reasonable weight.  I would like to feel more comfortable as I have problems with my knees from an old injury that would probably lessen if I...